dreaming

i just love this song...

Must have been dreaming not sleeping
Must have been living not thinking
I let my hair down and let you in
Must have been roses that summer

It's the small details I remember
The way that you laughed
And your hands moved me
You'll keep me warm forever
You gave me space to be

And though you're gone
I know you're dancing
In the next room
It wont be long
Until I'm dancing with you
Cos I never felt this way before

Must have been singing not speaking
Must have been waving not drowning
In the afternoon sunlight
You kept smiling
And I was so happy I found you

You got me spinning around
You got me upside down
You got me 

work! work! work!

I AM sooo bummed. 80% of my time is work. the 20% is divided for my sleep, boyfriend, friends (the time i spend with them is not even close to enough. -- i miss them so much), social life -(wait! i dont have a social life anymore). this sucks. this has been my situation for 9months already. yes, i am whining. but what else can i do? i cant stop now. this is my way of showing my mom --- or the world that i can be independent or shall i say can be responsible. i need to keep this job to prove something. gosh. this is so lame. how can i let the good times roll? help! save me from my self?!