I am broke. The cupcake business is fine but with the lifestyle that I have its never enough. I have bills to pay, stuff to buy and a kid to support.
I try my best to do everything right but its never enough. Some of my family members think this is a very stupid turning point for me. I never get the support I need. My personal life is hanging by a thread. Really. Sometimes I just dont know what to do next.
The hard work I've done is never appreciated. There's always something wrong with what I did. Always something missing. I don't even think of myself anymore. What I keep in mind is that as long as the people around me are happy then I'm happy.
But look who's crying now? This week love was taken away from me twice. how lucky is that? I'm spreading myself to thin for the people I love and they still hate me. I am always the Evil monster. I am the girl who never gets the love she deserves. They can just take away everything at any time. and it sucks. and i wish the black hole would suck me in.
so i guess 8 days from now, I'll be sitting on a table blowing a candle all by myself...
Sometimes, giving up is the easiest way out. But I cant do that. Because that's not me. All I can do now is surrender everything to God. and hope that eventually these sadness will go away.
